Aloha! Although these pictures were not taken in Hawaii like I planned. . . I am lucky enough to say that they we taken just a few minutes from where I live in Orange County. I was supposed to be vacationing in Hawaii with my family this month before my brother and I go back to school, it would have been our first family vacation since I was in 3rd grade. . .but we had a little change of plans and I am very thankful we didn’t get on the plane.
If you follow me on my personal instagram account @breerandall you may know a bit about the crazy life lemons my family has been given this past month. Long story short. . . my last living grandpa, Papa Wayne, had the chance to gather his family around for his final two weeks of life before he went to be with Jesus. I have now experienced two very similar deaths, both of my grandpa’s were brought home on hospice (at different times of course) and for the last week or so I have been feeling a bit angry, for the lack of a better word, with the fact that both of my incredible and loving grandpas had to pass while suddenly being on hospice. The two strong men who survived life threatening wars while in the marines and navy, raised incredible families and lived beautiful lives with their wives seemed too good to suffer the last days of their lives. But now I understand that the time I was given with my papa this last month was priceless. I was able to share ice cream, listen to stories I haven’t heard (or the same ones that seem to change over time) and visit with family members that I don’t see very often. I learned more about my papas faith and snuggled closely with the ones that mean the most in my life. This was the best gift my grandpa could have given us. Time to process that our lives were about to change forever. My grandpa passed peacefully and now we get to celebrate the life he lived and gosh did he live an incredible life: 36 years of retirement, endless ice cream Sundays, coffee 24-7 and lots of tractor riding.
Death is such a yucky thing for the people left down here on earth but after witnessing my grandma’s strength and faith during this trying time (they were married for 63 years. . . let that sink in a bit. . . that’s double or triple most of our lives! Talk about relationship goals!) I realized that all I need in this life is a lot of faith, love and family. There’s no doubt in my mind that I will have the privilege to see my Papa Wayne and grandpa Jim again && I am counting on the endless days in heaven when I get to eat ice cream all day while fishing with the both of them. Sometimes it’s really hard to be positive about this stuff and quite frankly it sucks. . .really really sucks but knowing that this is just a temporary home for us makes it a lot more comforting because after all . . .the end goal for my life is to graduate to heaven.
The above colorful happy little bracelets were gifted to us by Kurandza. If you haven’t heard of them already. . .you should definitely check out their brand & what they stand for! I really love supporting brands that are making a difference in the world! It’s much easier to understand who // what they are from their mission statement: “Our mission is to empower women, the majority of whom are HIV positive, through education and employment opportunities. We hope to increase economic opportunity for our women, helping them and their children to have a brighter future. In addition to receiving fair wages for their work, profits from sales go back to this community to fund development projects.” I suggest you head over to their site and fall in love with their jewelry just like we did!
shop my summer look //
tassel bikini: victoria’s secret
chambray vest: I originally got it from brandy melville but here is a tank that you can order a size or two up from forever21 and mimic the chambray vest look.
leopard straw hat: I got this about 5 years ago from urban but here’s one I totally dig from urban and you can tie a scarf around the top to get the leopard look.
stay golden //
xx b r e e